The First Step

On Monday, I decided to suck it up and talk with my boss about how working full-time wasn't working for our family.  I was nervous about talking with her, not because I didn't think she'd understand but just because I feel bad leaving my team.  I know it's a pain to hire and train new staff, and she's been really accommodating for me since N was born.  I could tell she was disappointed, but said that she completely understood the position I was in.  She is going to talk to her boss to see if there's anyway I can work part-time, although she and I both know that it's unlikely to be an option in our agency.  She offered to change my role and hours and all kinds of things to try to keep me there, which I really appreciate, but I stuck to my guns and told her that I felt that would just be delaying the inevitable and that working full-time was just no longer an option.  I'm actually proud of myself, since I'm really bad about being a 'people pleaser' and I know she really wants me to keep working there.  She was meeting with her boss yesterday afternoon and I'm working from home today so I'll be interested to hear what the outcome of her conversation was.  It's so crazy to think that I might be just a few weeks away from being a SAHM!